Still Trusting

Still Trusting.....

Yupp. Still. Mexico is in 9 days and I still need a ton of money. A little less then half is what I need to be exact. Sometimes I have myself convinced that that worries me, but it honestly doesn't. I know, that's crazy! I have every reason in the world to worry and fear, every single stinkin' reason. But I have a God who's perfect love casts out all fears.

EVERY FEAR.

How crazy/awesome/beautiful/wonderful is that? When you think of this situation from a worldy aspect I have every reason to fear. The key word in that sentence is worldly, but I know better. I know I have a God who I can put all my trust into, who I can cling to in hard times, and who has promised me for months now that I will be on this trip and that He will take care of it.

So what have I been up to? Beside holding onto that promise, I've been packing, buying present for my favorite kids, praying about this trip, getting my heart ready, ahhhhhh so much! Getting ready for this trip is so fun! So fun that I completely forget about the money aspect. I litterally feel so blessed just to get this opportunity, I could not even begin to complain about the fact that the money is taking longer then I would like.

I'm so blessed, I'm so faithful, I'm so ready. SO so ready!

I was so excited to flip my calender today!

This title is wierd but true, for those of you who know me, I get excited about dumb stuff. Well, I always get real excited to flip my Taylor Swift Calender every month, and I get to read the quote that is on the bottom, and yeah!

Well today I flipped my calender, and just stared at it. Guys...We're going to Mexico in 99 days, and if you want me to be completely honest...I'm terrified.

I know what you guys are thinking, "Why in the world are you terrified, you should be excited, blah blah blah."

Well, OF COURSE I'M EXCITED!! But so much is going on inside of me. It's like a whirlwind of emotions spinning around and around. First of all, this trip is expensive, and I know some trips are a lot more but, for my family it's the cost of the trip times 2. Also, like I've blogged about before, I'm scared to leave again. But there's one more that I haven't really said anything about, I'm scared that I won't make a difference, the more I think about it, the more I basically want to break down and cry.

But you know what, as dumb of a comparison as this is, I was watching What Not To Wear today, and this lady on there really didn't want to wear a dress, they told her "You need to get our of your comfort zone."

God uses crazy ways to speak to us, I need to get out of my comfort zone. Not just there, but here. I think it's so important to prepare your heart to love on broken people before a missions trip, and just get ready to, get out of your comfort zone.

I really need to trust God through this, and everything. This has really made me realise that we NEED to give our worries over to God, He knows what He is doing, and has everything under control.

Trust Him (:

Where you go I'll go

Helloooooooo (:

So this past wednesday, I woke up that morning, I read my bible, and I found this.

Phillipians 1:7

"It is right for me to feel this way about all of you, since I have you in my heart"

This verse reminded me of mexico, all day I just kept thinking, what if I'm not supposed to go back, I can't describe to you how bad that hurt. But, I hated to think I might be going back for the wrong reasons. I ended up breaking down at church later, what was I supposed to do. I cried and cried, and i prayed "God, if I am supposed to go, tell me." Then I thought of when I was talking to a friend a few weeks ago about how I kept having dreams that I went back, and I wasn't making an impact, and the kids didn't remember me, and they said that was definatly the devil. That stuck in my head, then in the car this song called Savior King came on, I really love this song. It says "Now the weak say I have strength" It says a lot of stuff like that, and what it's mean to me is like. When somebody tells you about God, your life flips around. Well thats what you do on a missions trip, you tell people about god. Well you know what, after that, and the thought in my hed, and a lot of prayer, God told me that I was supposed to head back to Mexico <3 <3 <3 <3 (: (: (: I 'm so excited to go back <3 <3 <3 (: (:

So one thing,  NEVER EVER let the devil convince you of things. He does not have good intentions for your life, and he is trying to block out the wonderful plan God has for you. ALWAYS trust God (: (: (: