Te extrano.

I have been back from Mexico for a little over a month now and I'm so surprised at how I feel, because I can't shake how much I miss it. Usually by this time after a trip I am better. And by better i mean that I still miss it, but not as much as I miss it on the way home from Mexico, or the first day back in America....but this time is different, because nothing has changed.

I cry everyday, every single day. And literally every moment of every single day my heart aches for one thing, and that is to be back in San Luis. It is all I can think about all of the time. And I love it, I love that my heart is broken for this, I love that God has made it so evident that this is where he wants me, but it's really hard. It's hard to miss it, it's hard to cry these tears, it's hard to describe how hard it is.

It's so very hard when you are somewhere other then where you want to be. I want to be in San Luis, every part of me does. I want to be there humming You Are My Sunshine to Eliza, I want to go visit shut ins and pray for them. I want sand all over my feet, I want to hear Dulce laughing at me spelling something wrong in Spanish, I want to be there because when I'm not there I feel so empty.

Because I fully believe that God created me to love on that city for the rest of my life.

So now I'm waiting. With tears in my eyes I'm waiting for another opportunity to go back. I'm waiting, and praying, and hoping, and I'm leaning on God to be my strength while I'm away.

I just want to be there. <3